Fairy Tale Love -

It's crazy, right?

To love someone who's hurt you?

It's crazier to think that

Someone who hurt you, loves you.

I wish I hadn't fallen for your lies,

I never wanted fairy tale love,

But I never asked you to create the illusion

Of short term perfection.

You destroyed what I thought was reality,

I never wanted you to tease me with your love.

I guess just because somebody loves you,

Doesn't mean they wont hurt you.

And I guess it's no big deal,

Really --

Break my heart, let me down.

Cause you "care" about me, right?

But when we were together,

I remember how I thought I would never stop loving you,

How I thought you were the one.

But now I see what you really are,

And I wish I could've seen the real you then.

Cause after all the hearbreaks,

And heartaches,

All I'm left with is a hole in my heart,

And feeling let down.

And when you told me you loved me,

I couldn't help but imagine how many

Other girls would hear those same three words.

Now Im sitting here,

Thinking, What if?

You really had me going for a while,

Made me think you'd never hurt me.

Cause please, if you really cared about me,

you wouldn't have done that.

I think about

Broken hearts and broken promises,

Yet, I keep feeling broke apart.

Just because I come off strong,

Doesn't mean I didn't fall asleep crying,

And even though I act like nothing is wrong,

Maybe, just maybe

I'm really good at lying.

Is this what love is?

The highs and lows?

The breakups and late nights crying?

Then no thanks,

I like my heart whole.

Now I can't breathe,

Im up late thinking about the past.

Torn into pieces, can't pretend Im alright.

You'll never care how much I cried.

You probably think you beat me,

You expect me to break,

You say, "I know you, you don't just stop caring."

But I never showed all of me to you,

You don't know me as well as you think.

I sit awake,

Thinking,

If I don't love you anymore,

Then why do i care so much?

Sometimes I wish you were still mine,

That I could turn back time.

Cause then I never would have done that too you,

And you would love me too.

I wish it were easier to see your face,

But I still see it every place.

I wish I could stand to see you two together,

But I just tell myself, "Whatever."

Cause I know,

Im just fooling myself into believing

I still love you, cause really,

I deserve better than you.

You told me you never wanted to see me hurt,

So does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

Listen,

I want the truth from you even if it hurts me.

You were there,

Through good and bad,

Where are you now?

I don't care what you say,

You were still the one to walk away.

I'll never get the true answers,

So I just shut my eyes,

Walk away,

And pray I don't fall.

You know, The worst thing about being lied to

is knowing you weren't worth the truth.

And although there were broken promises and broken hearts,

Without you, I still feel broken apart.

I cried today,

Not because I miss you

or even wanted you,

But because I realized that

I'm going to be all right

Without you.