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How is it that every song stuck in my head is the exact opposite of what Im feeling?

Am I trying to trick myself into believing everything is okay when Im really falling apart?

Why is it that I feel so confused right now?

I need a break.

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I hate mondays.

I hate awkward.

I hate mistakes.

I hate insults.

I hate selfish.

I love smiles.

I love laughing.

I love writing.

I love singing.

I love my Jesus.

I love people.

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Where are you now?

Now that I need you the most.

Now when all I think about is the reassuring words you used to whisper.

Now when I realize nothing will be the same.

And now, when I realize that none of it was ever your fault.

Now, when I realize my fears got in the way of what needed to be said.

Now, I realize this, when Im sitting here alone with just my stupid pride.

Now, when I look outside and notice it's like a million little stars spelling out your name.

And now, when our song repeats back to me, the words etched into my mind.

Now, when I see that you were so, so, sorry.

Now, when I go back over the silent conversations in my mind.

Now, when just a sign that you still think of me would be oh, so wonderful.

And now, when Im here alone, wondering where you are now.

Ha, oh, yeah, and now, when I could scream out these words, and know you're too far gone to hear them.

The sky may fall,

And the stars may too, But truth is,

In the end,

I'll still love you.

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Im trying not to worry about love,

Cause I know that even in fairy-tales,

They don't find each other until the last page.

But I honestly don't know what to say anymore.

Cause I know, for the first time, rainy days cant be wiped away,

With your laugh. With your smile.